Friday, January 28, 2011

Blog Challenge - Day 5

Happy Friday!  DH & I are spending the night in tonight.  So I'm gonna blog and run back to movie time with the hubby.  Today's challenge is a photo of you two years ago. 


This is DH & I a couple months before he proposed. He actually said, "let's touch noses."  Yep, he's pretty cute.  Hope everyone has a great weekend!


 

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Understanding Miscarriage

 

This is what everyone needs to understand about miscarriage. 


Wednesday, January 26, 2011

What do you believe in...

I have to do two posts on this challenge because there is one other thing that I know for sure.  The importance of always treating others kindly.  There is a Maya Angelou quote that I read several years ago that has always stuck with me.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

This has proven so true in my life.  Actions and words have faded, but the emotions and feelings that others have caused me to feel have always stuck with me.  In both the positive and negative, impacts left on me are always remembered in terms of feelings.

I do love a good quote, and I found this today and fell in love.

"Be nice to everyone you meet. They're fighting a battle you know nothing about." - Author Unknown

Everyone has something in their life, and you never know the positive impact a kind word, hug, or even just smile can have on someone's day.

I believe in kindness. 

Blog Challenge: Day 3

Happy hump day!  The week is almost over!!  I am very ready for the weekend already.  This week has already been exhausting!  I could really use some calm time with DH & I am hoping to have a relaxing weekend.  Isn't it nice sometimes just to stay in all weekend?  I love chill weekends and I am going to make sure at least one day this weekend, I get some QT with DH. It always refreshes me to spend some time alone with him.  I guess that's why I married him!  :)

Today's blog challenge is what do you believe in.  I've been thinking about this all day.  What do I know for sure?  What one belief do I know is true 100%.  I decided that I believe in unconditional love, forever.  For better, for worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, all that stuff.  I believe in my husband, forever. True, unconditional love is rare, but when you find it, you have to hold on to it.

My husband loves me unconditionally, and he is here for me no matter what.  I don't think that's very common, and I am grateful for him.  He and I will survive this hard time, and unfortunately probably several more.  We will make it, and someday we will have our family and look back at this time and say we survived together and now look how far we've come.  We will make it through this in the end.


Love is all you really need. 

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Blog Challenge - Day 2

Happy Tuesday...well what's left of it!  I was a little tired and sluggish today, so I just made it onto my computer for the day.  So this is my theme for today: 
I'm not feeling a huge amount of motivation, hope, happiness, or really much of anything.  I am calm.  I am carrying on, and these feelings got me through the day today.  I think that's enough for today. 

Anyway, it's day two of the blog challenge, and today's challenge is: a picture of something that makes you happy.  Well that's pretty easy.  
Yep, that's my dog...in a bikini.  She's spoiled, adorable, and truly the sweetest little dog in the whole world!  She makes me smile every single day.  She's definitely my first baby.  

I still have some homework and planning for my client tomorrow, so I am going to run.  I hope everyone had a great Tuesday, and my m/c bumpie friends are feeling a little bit better each day.  I think of all you wonderful, strong women every day.  ((HUGS))

Monday, January 24, 2011

30 Day Blog Challenge

Since I am new in the blogging world, I have decided to take part in a 30 day blog challenge where I post everyday for thirty days on certain topics.  It seems like fun & it can keep my blog a little more upbeat.  :)  If anyone would like to join me, follow the list below.  I'd love to do this challenge with some fellow bloggers...it's gonna be fun! ;)

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 3 – What you believe
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago
Day 6 – Favorite movies
Day 7 – Your dream wedding
Day 8 – A song to match your mood
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased
Day 10 – Dream house
Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – Favorite vacation
Day 13 – Your first love
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without
Day 16 – Goals
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name
Day 21 – Bible verse
Day 22 – Something that stresses you out
Day 23 – 15 facts about you
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – Something you've learned
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now, and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days



So, day 1 topic:  a photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Ok well this is me last weekend trying on dresses for my best friend's wedding.  Isn't this dress ADORABLE?!!  :)


As for my day, today was a pretty good day.  I had school this morning, and I met my new client for clinic.  He is four years old and a sweetheart, and I am thrilled to work with him this semester.  I came home tonight and relaxed.  I truly am feeling better every day, and tonight I simply enjoyed my night without too much anxiety or stress.  It feels good to feel a little more like myself everyday.  I haven't had a really good day in a while, and having a mostly emotionally stable day today felt good.  I am hopeful that my dreams will come true in time.   

{Hope is the feeling we have that the feeling we have is not permanent}  ~Mignon McLaughlin

My Sweet Pea

Today, I feel the sting from my last miscarriage so strongly.  The second I saw the two pink lines on the pregnancy test, I became a mother.  I instantly felt an indescribable love for my tiny little bean.  My instincts to protect and love and care for my little bean were stronger than any  instincts I have ever felt.  I was attached.  I was in love.  And to lose the child I couldn't meet, but somehow loved is an indescribable and terrible pain to feel.  How do you mourn for the child you never got to meet?

{Angel of my Tears}
How do you love a person
who never got to be,
or try to envision a face
you never got to see?
How do you mourn the death of one
who never got to live.
When there's nothing to feel good about
and nothing to forgive?
I love you, my little baby,
my companion of the night.
Wandering through my lonely hours,
beautiful and bright.
What does it mean to die before
you ever were born,
to live the lovely night of life
and never see the dawn?
Ah! My little baby,
you lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain.
And then like yours, it's done.
I love you, my little baby,
just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
the Angel of my tears.
~Author Unknown

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Meet Me...

Well here goes my first attempt at a blog.  I am making this blog in an attempt to heal.  I am the face of miscarriage.  I have lost two precious babies in the last six months, and I haven't quite been myself since.  My husband and I are considering trying again soon.  I'm hoping to heal my heart before then.  I have found some great relief in the blogging/message boards world, and I am hoping someone else can heal along side me and find some relief in my blog.  If nothing else, I hope this blog can be a place for me to put down all my feelings.  

I am currently studying Speech Pathology & working as an ABA therapist.  I love both & I am very passionate about helping children.  I love seeing children progress, and I get to do this everyday in my field.  I married my high school sweetheart on July 14, 2010 in a beautiful beach wedding.  It was the best day of my life.  <3  I have an adorable shih-tzu, Daisy.  She is five years old, and the sweetest little dog in the world.  Right now I'm a little bit of a broken soul, but I am working on healing and I am hoping that my take home baby will be here soon.  
 
Well that was a rambling of a first post....hopefully, I'll get the hang of this thing soon!